It’s past midnight

Its officilly Sunday here and I’m not doing a thing. I’m suppose to be workinh on that essay that I gotta write on MONDAY 1ST PERIOD!!

 

On the TV screen is Billu (Bollywood BLAH BLAH….)

 

I’m gonna complain now..

 

The incident on Friday has lead to a domino effect which is pissing me off (not to mention the fact I’m close to Mensis -_- )

I get the fact that what I did was stupid…

 

I was pissed because of the blow which had led to Suada getting worried and wanting to see me p3

 

I don’t think this is fair.

 

If “they” can’t deal with the sentence that’s been passed well its not my fucking issue.

 

I try not to get real close to a person because things like THIS happen. It’s not ME that gets hurt it’s THEM.

 

I HATE it absolutely HATE  it when a person revolves their life around me. I am NOT that important to that point!

If its one thing people learn about me is that I don’t like centring myself. (I’m not a big fan of public speaking but I still do it)

*10 minutes go by*

HAAH I started watching Billu XD

But this thing is pissing me off and I miss preethi (and my phone hopefully FF gives it to me tommorow)

 

Hmmm..

It’s nearly 1230.. I think I might heaed off to bed (actually tonight it’s the lounge T.T)

 

Majority of people in this world SUCK and SHOULD BE karma’d !!

 

GRRRR

A chat I had recently

A lot of people know that I am not what my friend refers to as a “nester” I can’t settle down with the first person I meet and so on.

My boyfriend has a lot of time on his hands. He’s outta school, is working but is on call so he basically is told say less than a weeks notice, otherwise he’s at home.

I don’t have as much time, I have school, attempt to take care of the house, look after my baby sister and mum and then do what I need to do for myself.One thing I do not have is enough time.

My boyfriend and I live apart from each other, tad far too. (To the extent that there is a time difference)

A lot of his friends don’t really consider “this” a relationship and all. I was kinda shocked and sad of this fact, and I can’t say oh well here.

I spoke to a relative of mine about this and she agreed with them, I was shocked but even though I love this guy I do (he makes me smile, laugh and want to hug him) I still had that nagging thought in the back of my head.

I’ve been with him for a while now (3months and 19 days. Yes I actually kept count). I did know him for a bit longer than that though.

It’s a fear of losing me he told me.

*sighs* I just don’t anymore.

Maybe I should just lose contact with everyone for a while. Go into Hermit mode for a while….